Lost then found

A short time ago I wrote about our youngest son being missing. The intense feelings of loss, fear and anger that go with not knowing where someone is. I shared how I began calling hospitals, nursing homes, then the coroners. We went through endless sleepless nights. Days of worrying that took our minds away from work.


Many things have changed in me over the last five and half months. My longing for glory as a writer has diminished. The desire to continue work in the medial field has left me. My thoughts of having a big house, nicer cars, better stuff, all gone. Our relationship was tested over these months. We have been together for 24 years. Nearly his lifetime. My thought has been, how can family just stop talking to you? I understand this from my own brother, who only communicates with me every four or five years, or when he remembers I exist.

Relationships are strange delicate things. We each are vying for something in them. Some want sex, some money, some drugs, some a place to live, a car to use, or food to eat. Even alcohol can be the factor that keeps us talking and hanging out. Relationships get tested when we begin to play our own games.

Family is an unbearable mark of sadness for me. Mine was so abusive I ran away at 13. To only find that other adults can make quick victims of us as children. My journey through this life has been marred with emotional darkness many people never see. Women and men who hated me so bad they wished me dead, and some tired. Employers who have wished to end my career.

By my own hand I played a part in each negative and positive situation. Lovers with whom I had a physical attraction so strong I would have died for them. Yet they lost me through abuse and lies.

Emotional and mental hurt I clearly understand. People can be cruel. We can raise each other to great heights or descend into the pits of hell. We are like little gods and goddess's ever playing our roles out amongst each other. We have done battle emotionally, and many of us have just grown tired of the games.

You can read on Craigslist the dark desires of those who can not find fulfillment in the bed room. Those who long to have romance. Those who just want to cuddle. Just to have physical contact. An ever relenting chase for comfort of some kind.

My desires have been simplified with the knowledge that our youngest son was missing, possibly dead. My journey with my spouse exposed us to a darkness neither of us had ever expected.  I thought I would just lay down and die. But then a call comes in telling us he is alive. We both wept like babies. Each seeking to allow the realty to get into, and knock away the dark thoughts and emotions we had now growing in us.

My career in flames but my step son is alive. No other joy has ever been so great. Other than when my wife entrusted me as a parent to her children. I bore great responsibility for them and have always felt they were mine. But I do not own them. I am not of their flesh and blood. I am but a distant reminder to them of the pain they endured as children with divorce. There is no worse a human than one who steps into a father or mothers place. At least in some peoples eyes. And so as the forbidden step parent, I am today saved because he lives.

Truth be told if I had one last breath to give I would give that to him. I have always loved that young man as my own. There is no greater pain or pride than to love a child, see them grow and falter and get hurt over and over. To not coddle them, but to allow them to grow to their fullest potential. I am grateful he is alive. I am grateful my spouse does not have to bury a son. I am more grateful I have learned about this sometimes sad, sometimes happy journey with missing persons. To all those who still have missing persons you are searching for, may they all be found. Closure is so important. We are fortunate he was lost, then found.

Written by: Derrick A Jasper February 19th 2015

Oregon Registries violation of law and privacy? Marijuana and now narcotic patients names listed

 In Oregon over two sessions ago the state legislator created another registry. Instead of marijuana patients, medical providers now list everyone who has been prescribed narcotics. Many medical Doctors will not list your name on the registry as they do see this as a violation of your right to privacy. However, the DEA sent a strong letter out to every Doctor around this country letting them know they must monitor their narcotic using patients more closely or they could loose their medical license.

Forced urine drug tests that have now sky rocketed in price to finance the greed of laboratories. And blood tests as well. With forced health insurance we are going to see many changes. These changes have nothing to do with good health care.

As a lay person I do not know if there is any law to disallow this action. However, as a medical person I was shocked. Not only are we listing personal medical information for the anyone in law enforcement. We have just violated your right to privacy afforded you through HIPPA.  Your name, lets them know you are being treated medically for something causing you physical pain.That information is part of your medical record history.

I am not a lawyer. If you feel this information is in error please feel free to comment. If you find this information as alarming as I did. There are things you can do.

Since finding out these issues, I have spoken to many persons who do not seem to care. They just want their medications and are afraid they will loose them if they say any thing. This is exactly why we must take action.

America has fallen victim to the belief if we only lock you up, you will change. We can now force you into treatment with the new health insurance laws. We can force you to leave your jobs if you do not comply. American policies have gone to far. And Oregon has violated our rights far to long.

Any state that moves to create registries to list your identity has gone to far. We created lists in WWII and WWI out of fear and ignorance,  we locked up hundreds of thousands of citizens because we were afraid.

The supposed war on drugs has created a billion dollar industry that supports law enforcement. Any unscrupulous person using these lists can create issues for us all. 

Oregon needs a wake up call immediately. Contact the following individuals with a letter explaining your case and care with narcotics. Be short and to the point. Strongly let them know you do NOT want your name or any medical information given to any law enforcement personnel this is a violation of your right to privacy and due process under the law. Let your Doctor know the same thing.

 If you have a criminal history, that does not mean you are a bad person trying to be good. You screwed up, moved on and changed. We just want to have this process ended in Oregon now. Since Marijuana is illegal federally I can understand creating a registry. However, that same registry is illegal for the very same reasons.

You can also contact the following individuals and the Disability Rights of Oregon at 1-800-452-1694. Write out your concerns and be short and clear. Any listing of your name is one step away from getting your medical history. Any registry listing names is a violation of your right to privacy. And due process under the law. Unless you are a criminal and on probation. People who need medications for pain are not criminals and should have never been placed on any registry by Oregon or any other state.

Doctors should not have to fear loosing their licenses for prescribing narcotics. Good health care has nothing to do with insurance, registries or lists of any kind. If we wanted to be in a study group medically, we are listed by number, not name. And please contact any attorney that covers this issue as this may become a class action suit against the state. If our government wants to move against us we have to push back.

People who break the law are forced to have drug tests and pay for them. Not the general public.  The mere idea of your name listed for any law enforcement to see could even set you up to be a victim of unscrupulous police activities. These lists need to be ended immediately. Please help me to see this through. You may also contact the ACLU and the next governor of Oregon Kate Brown Executive Office at:

136 State Capitol
Salem OR 97310-0722
503-986-1523
Fax 503-986-1616

Merkley, Jeff - (D - OR)

Class II

313 Hart Senate Office Building Washington DC 20510

(202) 224-3753

Contact: www.merkley.senate.gov/contact/

Wyden, Ron - (D - OR)

Class III

221 Dirksen Senate Office Building Washington DC 20510

(202) 224-5244

Contact: www.wyden.senate.gov/contact/

Lottery madness engulfing Americans February 2015

With seven, count them seven new millionaires the Power ball has grown to $450 million dollars. Americans are racing off to the nearest fortune tellers, Ouija boards and what ever else they can find to help them crack those elusive numbers. And make them rich. 

We have seen the lottery grow before. Then we read about the nice young woman who let the older lady in front of her in the grocery line. Only to learn, had she not done that thankless act she would have possibly been the lottery winner herself.

That young woman did receive a small token of thanks but nothing like those millions she lost from that one kind act.

We put together the top ten things people will do with the monies first. Feel free to add your own in there to make the list bigger and better.

1. Pay off all debts
2. Buy a new home
3. Buy a new ride
4. Buy new clothing
5. Quit working
6. Help the church out
7. Help some friends and family
8. Eat at the best restaurant in town
9. Take that always wanted trip
10. Have a huge party

None of these have any thing to do with investing. Taking cash instead of an annuity. You will take $304.1 million. Once Uncle Sam gets their slice of the action you really get under $200 million or there about. Add lawyer and accountant fees you may whined up broke as some lottery winners have shared.

Not bad for a two dollar ticket. Unless you are a shopaholic. That win may take you for the ride of a lifetime and right back into poor-ville when your done.

So here is the number one thing anyone ought to do with the money first. Invest; and that my friends may save you from a lifetime of wishing, hoping and dreaming about what if.

Good luck fellow Americans, we got our tickets, do you have yours?

DEA war on Hydrocodone painfilled laws

Seems as though more people just means more work. The DEA and FDA in America have created a vast tormented situation with medical providers.

Pain medications ranked as killers in the United States Hydrocodone became a class II narcotic leading the way for Doctors to hand hard copy prescriptions to the patient. Now you are responsible for the delivery to the pharmacy.

Pharmacies have had a small war with physicians for years due to over prescribing pain medications. However, evidence shows this situation was created from people "seeking to relieve pain". Not just the Physicians themselves prescribing. Who now seem to be targets nationally in what some are calling."the new war on prescription drugs."

In 2012 the DEA's rain of terror across this nation began. They started with Florida and worked their way around the coastal communities and then into the larger cities. With each suit, closure and arrest they seem to be sending a strong message to Americans. Behave, get help, or we will come see your Pharmacist, Doctor and you.

The co-existence of forced health insurance sales seems to coincide with these new DEA laws. This trillion dollar mass money share is responsible for netting billions in assets to share with DEA, and other law enforcement agencies. Many of these case's have been thrown out or lesser charges brought only to give a black eye to the medical community. Money now flowing in from so many Americans due to forced insurance sales. Everyone wants a piece of the pie.

Why all this fuss about pain medications? One reason when drugs touch those wealthiest in Washington laws are changed. Using the old adage, "We are protecting you," the average citizen.
Senators and Congressional leaders loath embarrassment at any level. They might spend thousands on hiring foreign help to keep their homes clean. Thousands on  quelling their sexual desires with high paid hookers. But dam it, when their children are drug addicts that is over the top.Washington bureaucrats can't control death from drugs.

American health laws look a lot like prison control of inmates rather than health care. Americans forced to buy health insurance. Forced to pay top prices for self drug screening tests. And these new laws are going to make physicians who follow them very wealthy. Urine drug tests that once were a mere $25.00 now have sky rocketed to over $1000.00 laboratories stating,"We use very expensive equipment and these tests take time." Are we to believe those microscopes cost millions?

We speak about health care and the wars on drugs as if this nation has nothing better to do but police its own people right into prisons, jails and treatment facilities. Keeping the business of your health alive. The DEA has stated, "We hope this move will help people get into treatment." This writer wonders if they made sure forced health insurance sales would pay for these said treatments?

Pain medications will never be stopped. What does the DEA really plan to do when addicts begin to say enough? First we prescribed the drugs that got them hooked, then we begin to punish them for addictions they can't control, now we are forcing them to buy products they can't afford, and we continue to raise prices, so home made hooch may be the only way to go.  Will the DEA want your personal hooch machines to?  Hydrocodone has been proven to help with real physical pain. What kind of pain has the DEA created for Americans?